January 9, 2010

: My Journey So Far

Growing up, I wasn't exactly one of those girls who dreamed of being a supermodel or an actress. As most I wanted to be "famous" but let's face it, I was a tomboy. I played basketball, soccer, softball, volleyball, and ran track & field. My father would take my sister and I on bike-rides and made sure we stayed as active as possible. I hated it then but I'm thankful for it today. I don't think I'd be this thin, otherwise (I have a serious weakness for junk food, especially Doritos). I also dabbled a little in dance, which I loved, but after a minor back injury I had a difficult time starting where I left off so I stopped.

Back then; my road to fame was being paved through my basketball career. I was extremely passionate about the sport. I started playing when I was 9 years old and by the time I entered High School I was seeing my name in local newspapers. I probably would have been scouted by top Universities and perhaps even tried out for the WNBA. However, I quit my Junior year of high school because I could not, for the life of me, get along with my coach. We both had quick-tempers (thank you Irish heritage!) and refused to compromise. I continued to play on my own time but that was the end of my athletic career. To this day, my sister gives it to me saying that it could have been me on billboards around our hometown instead of my rival whom I played so many games against in grammar and high school. There are days I wish I was still playing but, life has lead me down a different path.

It wasn't until I was walking around the annual Italian Festival one summer, at 16 years old, that I started to seriously consider modeling. A local agency stopped me and asked to get some information and take a photo. Soon thereafter, my father and I went to meet with the agency. It didn't work out as I needed some professional shots taken and I knew my father did not have the money to pay for them. I was disappointed but brushed it off easily.

I started shooting after I turned 18, as my father was out of my life and I didn't need his permission any longer. After my first shoot, I fell in love. I was always thinking about photo shoot concepts, what to wear, how to do my make-up, where those images would take me. I met and shot with some amazing photographers, models, and stylists whom I will never forget. (A special thank you goes out to Brian and Leigh Anne Grinham - I wouldn't be the model, or person, I am today without the direction from either of you. You both pushed me past my limits and into places I never dreamed I could take myself to!)

I moved to California in the summer of 2007. As difficult as the transition has been, I am very happy with the decision. I have to admit that I was awfully intimated coming out here. Being a model in my hometown was a great experience, as I was a big fish in a small pond. Moving to Southern California shook me a bit. I shot with a couple photographers but for whatever reason, I lost my desire to continue. After only four months of living there, I moved up north to the Bay Area and have been here ever since.

It is sad to say, I don’t have much to show for myself these last two years in regards to my career. I mostly shot in 2008 and recently walked in a couple fashion shows. Through all of the emotional battles, I haven’t had the motivation to do what I love. I can tell you, it makes life a lot harder to live. “Our passion is the reason for our existence.” I read that earlier this morning on a friend’s Facebook page, and there couldn’t be a truer statement. I think that in order to live a fulfilled life, you have to have a passion for something and the drive to make it happen. What is life without passion? A pretty boring existence if you ask me.

Anyway, I’ll wrap this up with some examples of what I’ve done so far! Who doesn’t like photos?! ;)















2 comments:

  1. I love your billboard comment, sooo true. How awesome would it be if you could have been in the WBNA and a model, what an awesome role model that would be for young girls! Let that passion light a fire under your ass and get out there and grab your dream. Just don't book any gigs for October 2010 :) Love your big sis!

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  2. I agree. But who's your rival thats on a billboard? I can't remember who was really good at bball other then the grl from Sacred Heart. And definitely enjoy your ride with the modeling. You are beautiful and you make us proud of you everyday. It's not easy to leave the comfort and security of home. But, that's what makes you strong. You have passion and desire. And I hope I can be there to share it with you some day. Love you <3

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