December 29, 2010

: I Can't Read You

Lately I've been struggling with my image. Who am I? How do people perceive me and the things I say?

I used to have no shame when it came to promoting myself and/or simply talking about my life. These days I limit myself most of the time because I don't want to seem desperate for attention. I see it day in and day out with celebrities, some of my close friends, and people in my networks. I get sick of it. I don't want to be like that or come off that way, but I don't know how to put myself out there otherwise.

There are so many times I write a post and don't hit send, or do hit send and delete it 2 minutes later because I'm afraid of how people will take it. Maybe that's the problem? I'm too worried about what others will think? I'm too worried about how I am perceived? I mean, I think I'm a good person with a lot to offer and that is all I want people to think of me.

Maybe part of my problem is thinking too much. Actually, I am positive that plays a part as well. *Big sigh*

Whatever my problem is, I know one thing for certain: I love the internet. I've had my face on here since I was 13 and in turn it became an important part of my life. I've shared so much of myself and my life with strangers all over the world. Because of it, I've gained some of the best friendships I have. I wouldn't trade them for the world!

I hope to have this figured out by the new year. New year = new attitude!

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