May 18, 2011

This is My House, This is My Home

Not to my surprise, last night's One Tree Hill hit very close to home.

Nathan was reflecting on his life and thinking about his father, mostly how he is missing out on his grandchildren's lives. What does Nathan do? He visits the place Dan works and brings him a photo of Lydia and Jamie's baseball. It was touching and tore my heart even more into pieces.

This is something I am going to have to deal with, too, when I have a family of my own. Right now I have no idea if I will ever speak with my father again… if I will ever tell him when I do have a family… if I will ever let him see my child(ren). And that really sucks. It hurts. None of us thought about any of this 7 years ago, but so much can change in 7 years and so much has changed.

This is something that has been weighing heavily on my mind now that I am starting to plan my wedding. There are so many people who I always thought would be at my wedding who will not receive an invitation. They don't even know it yet and it's giving me so much anxiety.

It's crazy how much one person's decision can affect the lives of so many others. Please think carefully and make good decisions, guys. You don't want to end up like me nor do you want your loved ones to end up in the position I am.

On a positive note, One Tree Hill will have a proper send off with Season 9. Yes!

1 comment:

  1. I know this is kinda out there, but through all your experiences you have had... it will make you be such an amazing mom one day, knowing the life you will want for your child(ren).

    t is sad, for what your dad made you and your family go through, and I wish you never had to go through that. You (we) can only hope that your story will touch others, and help others who have and will be in the same situation.

    Your such a strong young woman, and you are a role model to many people :-)