I miss being excited about things. Missing that spark. Must find it.
Tweeted that earlier today, and it's how I've been feeling for quite some time now. Nothing in my life excites me anymore. Excuse me… very little in my life excites me anymore.
I wake up every morning, turn off my alarm (at least I think I do sometimes), and roll back over to sleep some more. I don't want to get out of bed because I feel that I have nothing to look forward to. And that sucks.
Anyway, I realize that part of my problem is that I don't do anything anymore. I don't work out. I don't like to go shopping. I rarely hang out with friends, whether it's because I'm not invited or because I never feel like getting ready for it. I haven't truly modeled in about a year and even with the stuff I've done in the last two years, it hasn't been fulfilling. It's rare that I sit down with a good book to read. I'm currently not in school. I hardly ever have the discipline to sit down and blog about something substantial. And in a nut shell, my social anxiety prohibits me from doing a lot of the things I want to do.
Now to you all. Have you ever been depressed? What do youdo/have you done to fight through it? What do you enjoy doing that makes you happier?