Life’s funny. The way the universe slaps you in the face. The way you’re talking about happenings in your life and the next day you’re reading a blog or Facebook post that fits PERFECTLY into that conversation.
It just happened to me and I can’t stop wiping away the tears –
“…forget how experienced you are in something, simply decide failure isn't an option, and makes sure your life looks like you. You might say...yeah but failure is possible. And here's the thing, if that is your first response then you're right. But if you decide it isn't possible then it ISN'T. Because your idea may evolve but it never dies. I believe in goal setting but don't be fooled that you need to have a 5 year plan to make your life work TODAY. Don't let the recession make you think you need to play it safe. Don't let your bills bully you. If you live in America, like most of you do, then the truth is that your worst case scenario is still better than much of the worlds daily routine. You don't just owe it to yourself to live better, it is your responsibility as someone who has been given so much.”
My life has been a struggle the last few months. In my search for clarity, a sense of self and meaningful work, I constantly doubt myself. I don’t see myself in the ways others do: capable and strong. It’s sort of f*cked – I know I am yet I don’t feel myself believing it. Instead, I put myself down and knock myself out of the race without giving myself the chance to be great.
I find it's equally f*cked how aware I am of my blessed life – the fact that I do live in America and the possibilities for happiness and success are bountiful and still I choose to see things from a dark place… like those opportunities don’t exist. Maybe I do know they exist, but for some reason, don’t believe they exist for me.
I also know that I’m not alone in this darkness and my struggles. It’s comforting but I/we have to start taking steps away from that comfort if we dare to grow into who we want to be…who we’re supposed to be…who we know we are capable of being. Cue token One Tree Hill quote:
So, who do you want to be? How will you get there?